The Long Goodbye

Hi friends,

On Friday—January 26, 2018—my cat Elaina had a follow-up appointment with our veterinarian because she had surgery on her bum last week and a mass removed from her tongue. Unfortunately, the biopsy results contained bad news. Elaina has an aggressive form of cancer in her mouth called squamous cell carcinoma.

We opted not to do chemotherapy or radiation because the treatment isn’t effective against this cancer type and would significantly hinder the quality of Elaina's life. At this point, we want to keep Elaina as comfortable as possible (which includes giving her pain medication daily). Right now, we're taking things day by day, and we hope that Elaina will eat and drink more.

The news about Elaina walloped me. I didn't expect it because Christie has been the sick one. In August 2017, she was diagnosed with chronic kidney disease. Thankfully, Christie is content, maintaining her weight, feisty, and playful.

To cope with the bad news, I started rereading portions of Thomas McNamee's book—The Inner Life of Cats. It’s a beautiful book, and McNamee’s chapters on Illness, Aging & Death as well as Love comforted me.

I don't know how long Elaina will be around. I didn't ask the vet for a time frame on Friday because I was upset. We’ve started talking about pain management, nutrition, hydration, hygiene, and physical comfort, and on Monday, I'll check in with the vet about a detailed hospice care plan for Elaina. We want our girl to be happy and comfortable during her last days; whether that's a week or 6 months.

With gratitude,

Tammy